Happy Monday Love,
“If our heart were large enough to love life in all its detail, we would see that every instant is at once a giver and a plunderer.” Gaston Bachelard.
It is a brand new week and a complete turn of weather for London. It was a beautiful snowy week due to the Beast from the East last week and now it has moved on, the Sun is shining brightly again. Of course it was lovely when it snowed, but I am definitely not complaining for Spring to sneak in. Oh talking about a new season, I love how the change of seasons is giving us an extra perspective of time.
We moved here in London last Spring and just like that, we are going into another Spring soon. It has been too fast! Are you feeling it too? Sometimes, I am finding it is quite strange that now and then, we have the exact same 24 hours in a day but it seems shorter now than ever. I can still remember myself counting hours to the evening so I can go to the park and play Galah Panjang or Baling Selipar with my friends when I was a child. It felt like the clock was ticking too slow. But these days, time passed us by too fast that it is impossible to catch it. Like suddenly, it is the end of the day and then it is time for your kids to enrol to school and get married. Of course I am exaggerating but don’t you feel the same? People say “Time flies when we are having fun”. However, as we age, time seems to fly away so fast even when we are having fun or not.
It is all in our mind. Time basically moves as fast or slow as we perceive and want to perceive it to be. Undeniably, there are days and even minutes that felt too long but when we look into a bigger perspective it was too quick. I believe that time feels longer when we are anticipating for it and when we are spending the time with people or doing things we love the most. Don’t you agree that it felt like forever waiting for those school breaks that we long for during our childhood; it felt forever for Summer to come; even when we were counting for upcoming holiday trips; or even while waiting for the right person to come. Simply because at some point of life, we are anticipating for those events to arrive. It might not be too far away but it felt like forever when we were awaiting for it. Fast forward to the end of it, those times were gone way too fast and it has became memories. Like, has it been that far away?
Do you still remember those days when heartache was your friend? Time seems to move too slow and waiting for the pain to heal seems forever, or shall I say seems impossible? It felt like those days have been stretched to longest hours and would not go away. But as I look back at that time now, I just cannot believe that those time has passed and I have been married with my dear husband for almost two years. Just like a dream, it felt like forever when you are living it, but when you woke up, you realised that it has only been 10 minutes! Like the pain, the good times are also saying “This too shall pass” whether we are aware of it or not.
Well I cannot give an absolute explanation to this and however intellectual the argument sounds like, ultimately, we all should believe that the holder of time is God. When Allah said that our one day is like your one thousand years (Hajj / the Pilgrimage: 47) and in another verse said that our one day is like your fifty thousand years (Ma’arij / The Ways of Ascent: 4), I used to wonder how, I just couldn’t comprehend why. Looking back at those verses, they are both talking about those disbelievers who asked on the torments that they were threatened with. The verse came down saying that when the time comes, (it will be too painful that) you will feel like it took a thousand time, although in reality it has only been one day. Similar like how disbelievers feel like death and hereafter are long way to go but for those who have faith, those times feel too near and there are not enough time to pray. It is all your perception of time, to feel it longer or shorter although all of us have the same 24 hours a day. Although above all, we also need to believe that God is in power to control the time. If He can create the world, of course He can make one day longer or shorter as He wishes, right?
Oh well. I have been digressing and blabbing too much.It is just one of those things playing in my head today. Something maybe for us to ponder on and think of how we have been treating our time. Because as we know, this life too shall pass…
AYUUKEJUU 